"Ni Aqui, Ni Alla” is excerpted from Jillian in the Borderlands: A Cycle of Rather Dark Tales, by Beth Alvarado, forthcoming from Black Lawrence Press in September 2020. Alvarado is the author of three earlier books: Anxious Attachments, which was long-listed for the PEN Art of the Essay award, Anthropologies: A Family Memoir, and Not a Matter of Love and other stories. She lived in the Arizona-Sonora Borderlands for most of her life.