Returning to a place after a long absence, we are often shocked by both the small and the vast changes, effectively alerting us to the radical indifference places have to the sentiment we apply to them. Here, our own selves can become the site of an internal quarrel as to how a place once was; by claiming to cognitively remember the feel of a place, our bodies can provide a different history of the past. The result is that a place can take on a life of its own, quite apart from the way it is experienced or remembered.

Dylan Trigg, from The Memory of Place

 

there was no day before it was a dream                                      mother and daughter

 

unable to live at this age together                                                   even for a summer

 

evergreen eye movies                                                 boxes packed up nowhere to go

 

sun settling over peaks                              not long enough for shock at vast changes

 

sideways rain running                                                                   just move the heart

 

4pm dark finch songs                                                              varying temperaments

 

fly back only                                                          for the place’s radical indifference

 

a box with message inside                                              the nightmare lacks presence

 

old lover   the married one                                         this body a different back story

 

flutter on life’s surface                                          rift with ambient breath of its own

 

the sun the man the smoke the run                              bundle of different sensations

perpetuated flux and movement                            the sun the man the smoke the run

 

 

Note: “dub for cascadia” takes its title from the song by Loscil on Endless Falls (Kranky 2010) and appeared in Coconut Issue 16.