My little boy heart wants to titty-fuck everything.
It wants a bigger penis, wants to know what to do
with growth, wants the woman behind the counter
at 7-Eleven to keep her back turned, her arm pumping
the squeeze cheese over its tortilla chips, wants her
to keep loose count of the Camel Lights on the countertop.
My little boy heart wants one of the hundred left
lotto tickets in the parking lot to be lucky.
My little boy hearts believes in Santa
more than Jesus. It wants extra
crispy Kentucky Fried Chicken for breakfast,
wants to kick and scream and throw
the ball great distances, wants the soap to stay
out of the mouth no matter what shit it speaks,
no matter its small hands lifting
a twenty from its mother’s pocketbook.
My little boy heart can’t tie knots, wears Velcro shoes
and Hypercolor tee-shirts so when it beats and heats up
its colors change, so when you grab it
you will know green means jealousy, blue is blueness.
My little boy heart wants an indoor swimming pool,
wants to wear floaties forever, wants to be lifted,
never sinking, never gasping for air,
never forced to look up to pray to a cloud.
My little boy heart wants to be brave as an astronaut.
It wants Kevin Costner to build it
so he will come, wants Kevin Costner to go
the distance, to ease his pain and walk
with the pained through a cornfield
until everyone evaporates, until the pain is no more
significant than a finger caught in a car door.
Photo by Sarah Horrigan
Wow! Your poem just knocked a hole in my idea for aa love poem….entitled “My Little Boy Heart”. It was your opening with the reference to titty-fucking! But, a bigger dick, I’m OK with that. Good for you, you wrote something, while I dreamed of writing.
Not as, a.
Not as, a! I need to do a better job of editing before hitting the send button!